Mandeep's maiden venture

 Read an excerpt from Yogananda Paramhansa’s views on children and Karma. Quite an interesting article but what confuses me is that if we are only mediums to bring them into this world and if they have their own  path to follow then that means we can’t/shouldn’t say anything to them. Let them chart their own life path.  Is it really doable ? Can we have that kind of a relation ? 

 There is so much to learn about so many things. Unending , fathomless.  It is amazing as well as daunting to think about all the things I know very little about and even more things I know nothing about ! Gardening, cooking, music, the stars, love , home remedies and even relationships. Who am I to lecture anyone or even advise anyone on anything , when I myself am so ignorant !  Learning about myself is the biggest task for now. I have been with myself for the past 56 years and each time I sit and think about what my views are about a particular thing , I realise that my views keep changing as I grow older. I think I am more forgiving or more impatient maybe.  More later…

  Today I haven’t written since morning and it’s already night ! Better late than never. How we adjust our idioms and proverbs to suit ourselves ! From early bird gets the worm to better late than never 😀 The day went by quickly. Mama had her 5th chemo today and Cherry , Anna and Riya helped her by taking turns. Namrata leaves tomorrow and I will miss her and Kabir.  Today was my day to slow down and take things easy and that’s what I did. Some days are meant to soothe the soul with its slow pace and simplicity.

 I plan to take myself to task early in the morning. Later  my lazy bones and a mind-full-of-excuses hold me captive with the promise of ‘the right time’ later in the day and I end up not keeping my promise to myself. So here I am !  We went to see Ikkis yesterday , a movie on the life of our 1971 war hero , 2nd Lt Arun Khetarpal, Param Vir Chakra. The name of the movie is a tribute to the young officer who attained martyrdom at the age if 21(ikkis) . I am glad producers are making an effort to make the public aware of these brave hearts. Imagine giving up your life at 21, an age where most people are still figuring out what to do with their lives . And this young officer went ahead bravely , destroyed innumerable enemy tanks before laying down his life. Even soldiers from the other side lauded his bravery. That was 1971. Cut to 2026. People don’t even remember his name , except in the defence circles. Talk about this movie made me so upset. People’s reaction ranged from ...

 For the new year my  resolution is to write everyday , about anything and everything that comes to my mind, without filters of morality, societal norms or any xyz thing. Just write. Be disciplined and just go for it ! I have been told by my psychologist that it is good for me. Takes away anxiety and hidden pressures and triggers and more such psychological stuff. I have been told by a good friend that I have a knack of writing and I need to let it flow! So here goes moi. Writing my first page on day 3 of the year ! Says a lot of my new year resolution of writing everyday !!!! The 2 days that I have missed are the ones where I was weighing the advantages and disadvantages and looking at my past resolutions very objectively. Not a good review at all ! But I must congratulate myself for today . Well done, dear !